On this Christmas Eve Day, we’re thinking of gifts given and received. Right now I’m remembering another kind of gift – the gift of helplessness.
Vanessa knows what I mean.
I met her today through the beauty of the internet. She reminded me of this gift: When she reached the end of herself she found the Lover of her soul. Vanessa: she had twenty-one surgeries by age thirteen. Years in the hospital. Verbal and physical bullying from schoolmates. Multiple miscarriages as a young wife. the death of a child. a debilitating progressive disease. Riveting pain. Abandonment. Unwanted divorce. She begged God for the grace to deliver her, but God offered her much more – He offered her His sustaining grace.
Read her book, The Scars That Have Shaped Me, and see the miracle found in the gift of helplessness.
I know what it means to be helpless. I wrote this post thirteen months ago and yet it is appropriate for today so I thought I would remind you of this different kind of gift.
Over a year ago, I survived brain damage and nearly died twice. My world was out of control and I was spinning in its wake. In humbleness and with trembling lips I came to Him.
“Lord! Help me! I need you!
He answered me in a way I couldn’t have imagined. I was helpless, but my Abba Father was not. He took my hand, like a child, and led me through my helpless in grace, beauty and peace. In His gift of helplessness, I found Him faithful!
[tweetthis]The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit. Psalm 34:18 NIV[/tweetthis]
The Gift of Helplessness
Trouble troubles the mind
Worry worries the soul
Sleep eludes me
I’m helpless to help myself
Self-confidence brings no relief
Self-assurance does not assure
Self-seeks her own way
The deafness of self
Relinquish all rights to self
Lean into the living God
Helpless I come to Him
Broken, He finds me
Love, He lifts me up
Comfort upon comfort comforts my soul
The yielded heart refreshed
Thank God for the gift of helplessness!
Prayer of the Helpless Heart:
Lord! I cannot handle this! If left to myself, who would hinder my fall, mend the broken places, steady my shaking soul? I cannot trust myself. Lord, I need you!
Do you remember when you felt helpless? What happened?
Uniquely Yours in Him,